Dusk returns. All colors change again. The French vanilla begonia appears a soft peach on the childhood picnic table bench; the first periwinkle flowers of one butterfly bush–blue; phlox petals have taken on a tinge of lavender to blend with their bright fuchsia earlier when they began to open in waves.
The sea thistle will transform green-blue tomorrow morning, I am sure. Then silver as the July pages of the calendar flow.
All bird song has ceased as well as the frantic search for their fallen one. The hawks did witness and caw at the simple burial out front [under the colossal maple after the boys’ next door were able to dig around the mammoth roots]—their scalloped wings and silhouettes gliding up high.
I am holding on to things: stairway balustrades, the dog’s fence, the cemented mailbox–when I stumble out in the yard with spiritual vertigo.
Tonight I will light the paper lantern and lament the loss of most of the crickets this year that have probably, wisely, relocated to Canada.
If I were the moon rising in a mere hour or so, I would close my eyes. Tired, and all. And sleep in the burgeoning layers of cloud pillows.